Still in shock

Hi, I am 59 and found out I had breast cancer on 23rd March. At first I was in shock and in denial and then the flood gates opened and I couldn't stop crying. The next wave was being cross and angry. I had the appointment with my surgeon on 29th March and he is planning to do breast conserving surgery with sentinel node biopsy on 20th April followed with 5 weeks of radiotherapy. The waiting game eats you alive but I have found this website and 'My Journey' a great comfort to me. My friends and family have been very supportive. I find myself worrying about everyone else but I have to start to consider how I feel and how I am going to cope with each day at a time. My husband and I had been saving for two years to travel to Cape York on a 7 week caravan trip on 30th June this year and I am praying I will be fit enough to go. I feel that I should be grateful for having found the lump early and not worry about the holiday but it is my husband’s dream. I have a goal to achieve which I hope will keep me positive. It is nice being able to relate with others on here and I hope all goes well for you and we can keep each other posted J Chrissy

Thanks Michelle, Jo and Jenny..

The last few days have been a living nightmare. Yesterday was a good day (don't think I cried all day) but today has been a little up and down..... my Mother-In-law died of Breast Cancer when my husband was 14 and it's been one year today since my father-in-law pass away of Prostrate Cancer.  My husband is good and I'm trying really hard not to put any extra pressure on him.

I guess it's the not knowing. I don't think my lymp nodes are involved... but every ache and pain has me worried.. Like you Michelle I just have to wait it out and not try and second guess anything till I have all the facts.

thanks everyone for the support... and Michelle keep me posted on how you go.

Trina

Thanks Michelle, Jo and Jenny..

The last few days have been a living nightmare. Yesterday was a good day (don't think I cried all day) but today has been a little up and down..... my Mother-In-law died of Breast Cancer when my husband was 14 and it's been one year today since my father-in-law pass away of Prostrate Cancer.  My husband is good and I'm trying really hard not to put any extra pressure on him.

I guess it's the not knowing. I don't think my lymp nodes are involved... but every ache and pain has me worried.. Like you Michelle I just have to wait it out and not try and second guess anything till I have all the facts.

thanks everyone for the support... and Michelle keep me posted on how you go.

Trina

Hi Trina,

I understand exactly how you feel, like the world has turned upside down since getting the diagnosis.  Like you, I am waiting to see the surgeon after Easter to hear what happens next.  You are a day ahead of me.  You're right - it's scarey.  I keep thinking that the sooner it all starts, the sooner it will be over, and in the meantime this site is so helpful - you can download issues of The Beacon newsletter, which really help with information.  I hope Wednesday goes well (take a little notebook) and I will follow your blog for updates. 

Be strong - thinking of you,

Michelle x

Hi Trina and welcome. As Jenny said "it is tough getting that news and the total experience is so very overwhelming. We can all hear you Trina as the feelings you are having have hit us all. Its a time that we all think we will never have to embark on. Its a horrible time and i  really am feeling for you. The memories still remain strong in my mind or though 8 months has already passed since my diognosis.

Things will feel more in control when you receive your results and treatment plan. At least you will know where you are and be able to start taking some of that control back that was so rudely taken. Have you sent away for the" My Journey Kit". It can be found on the home page of this site. (BCNA)

It is a great source of information that will help you tremendously. I know it helped me with the many thousands of questions i had running through my mind. The Kit is free so make sure you click on the link to get yours.

I found this site to be one of the better ones to find support and information so don't be afraid to come back and ask as many questions as you feel you need. You will find some really lovely ladies that can offer their support and knowledge. Good luck with your results  and let us know how you get on . All the best

Cheers Jo  xx

Hi Trina and welcome. As Jenny said "it is tough getting that news and the total experience is so very overwhelming. We can all hear you Trina as the feelings you are having have hit us all. Its a time that we all think we will never have to embark on. Its a horrible time and i  really am feeling for you. The memories still remain strong in my mind or though 8 months has already passed since my diognosis.

Things will feel more in control when you receive your results and treatment plan. At least you will know where you are and be able to start taking some of that control back that was so rudely taken. Have you sent away for the" My Journey Kit". It can be found on the home page of this site. (BCNA)

It is a great source of information that will help you tremendously. I know it helped me with the many thousands of questions i had running through my mind. The Kit is free so make sure you click on the link to get yours.

I found this site to be one of the better ones to find support and information so don't be afraid to come back and ask as many questions as you feel you need. You will find some really lovely ladies that can offer their support and knowledge. Good luck with your results  and let us know how you get on . All the best

Cheers Jo  xx

Hi Trina I understand your shock. Its tough to recieve such news when you least expect it. I am sending you a virtual hug. It takes a while to come to terms with the diagnosis and you will experience all sorts of emotions. I think most of us worry more about our families than we do for ourselves. Make sure you have a good chat with your GP and ask lots of questions about treatment options available to you. Ask him to explain the biopsy results. Do you have a partner or good friend who can support you at your appointments? It can be overwhelming discussing treatments and may be helpfull to have someone with you to help remember all the information discussed. It's a lot to take on board but you may feel better able to cope after seeing your Doctors. I wish you all the best and will be thinking of you. love Jenny