still going
Well I am now into my 3rd year of this journey and not much has changed I am still scared about the future the body is still tired and aching. The only thing is now I know the treatment and I have ac...
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Hi SueRi
Sorry to hear your journey is not going as well as you would have hoped.
My initial diagnosis was advanced breast cancer, with widespread boney mets (what a complete shock that was!) I had full mastectomy (removal of all lymph nodes, as 11 out of 14 were cancerous) 2 years ago this week, and yes, it does feel like a 'never ending story!' I originally had 6 months IV chemo, then 25 radiation treatments. In Sept '10, I had another 5 radiation treatments to my C3/C4 vertebrae due to cancer 'eating a hole' in bones. The list of treatments just seems to keep growing!
I have just started another treatment of chemo, this time orally Xeloda, as 'things' appear to be on the move again. I feel really strange taking chemo this way, as I feel like I am doing nothing. With IV treatment you actually see the drug going in, which gave me a sense of 'great - something is now happening which will kill of this cancer!'
With this new drug, I cant 'see' anything which is making me wonder, will it work! I truyly hope so. This is less of a hassle, in that I dont have to go to the Day Surgery unit each week (which is 2 hour return trip, plus the time taken to administer the IV) - its just popping 4 pills each day - 2 weeks on and 1 week off.
Dont be hard on yourself - yes! you could be stuck in a flood somewhere, but that would pass with time, you are facing a long uncertain journey, and you are entitled to feel a little down.
Take care of yourself and I hope you 'pick up' a little.
Di