Yes telling our mums is the hardest thing. My mum lost our darling dad after complications of a routine operation 25 years ago at 55 and I am now about that age. When I did tell my mum, her fear was written all over her face that the same thing would happen to her daughter and it took a long time for her to be able to cope. She has now though and she's a tower of strength to me. I also remember how I felt when my son had a scare with a lump behind his nipple (which turned out to be fine thank goodness) while I was going though chemo. I made a pact with the devil to take me and not him. A mother never wants their children threatened with anything. I think the maternal instinct is unlike anything else in this world. It is unique.
I hope your specialist appointment yesterday went well and you now have a plan of action. Everything will start to happen quite quickly once you have a plan and believe it or not, things will fall into place and you feel you can get on with it.
Love Janey xxx