I think I've devoloped secondary cancer in my lungs and possibly in my bones too. I am terrified, can't focus on anything, feeling nauseous, can't eat. dry mouth. How do people cope with this? There's a small chance I'm wrong but everything is pointing to this. Developed a cough about three weeks ago that won't go away no matter how much vitamin C I take. Also got some tenderness on my torso - feels like a bruise. Just been to the gp who has referred me for a chest x-ray this afternoon mentioned cough and sore rib on referral. I hadn't considered that the tenderness I was feeling on my side could be cancer-related too but now he's put it in those terms I am petrified. Diagnosis of early breast cancer was bad enough but this is 100 times worse. If it is what I think it is I'm gonna die - soon. How do you get your head around that? How do I tell my parents, my children? How will my dufus husband cope with everything? I feel like I'm about to ruin all these people's lives. Wont know for sure until I go back to gp tomorrow afternoon. Don't know how I am going get through the next 28 hours.

Hi Jandy, I have not been in your situation but know how hard it is waiting for results for tests. Try and distract yourself from thinking the worst by keeping busy, reading, watching your favourite movies etc. It's just as likely that it is not BC. When you get your results, if it is bad, then there are many resources here for advanced bc sufferers. I have my fingers crossed for you! Julia

I feel so bad for you, try your best not to overthink this until you have some facts. Like Julia said, maybe watch some favourite movies and keep yourself occupied. I have my fingers crossed for you and sincerely hope it is not what you expect. Sending big hugs to you, Hazel xx

No way i can advise--except that during radiation treatment one of my ribs was 'discovered' and commented on my team and myself--i brought it up to radiation dr who said unlikely it was anything but wrote ? metasties on the referral form--it was just a bigger rib but seeing the words on the referral form can be confronting--but just because dr raised it or wrote possibility..doesnt mean it is ..some of our symptoms seem to anxiety! best wishes

So important to remember that one step at a time. Just focus on getting through the next few hours until you get your results of the x-ray. I find the only thing that I can focus on at times like this is sudoku. TV and reading etc, are not enough to occupy my mind and stop it from racing off too far ahead. The other thing I do is go for a long walk. I'm hoping it will all be ok for you. Let us know how you go. Thinking of you. Deanne xx

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Maria_Cosgrove_
Member
11 years ago
I think we all must have a fear that the cancer may pop up somwhere else, I know I am concerned about that at the minute finding all kinds of lumps and bumps sick tummy ect ect, and thinking whats the point of the radiation in my breast and knocking myself out for 6 weeks if it already has gone somwhere else, very silly I know, I ma not normally a negative thinker!
fungooleyruley
Member
12 years ago
So glad to read thru your post and see that everything is ok. For what it's worth I can also get myself so worked up and anxious I start to feel nauseous and this would explain what was going on with you. It can be such a tough gig even down the track following treatment. I've got a couple of people in my life who I can contact any time I like if it starts to get to me and we just sit and talk over a cuppa and we can say anything to each other and hopefully have a good laugh as well. All the best Janet! Hugs, Vicki oXo
fungooleyruley
Member
12 years ago
So glad to read thru your post and see that everything is ok. For what it's worth I can also get myself so worked up and anxious I start to feel nauseous and this would explain what was going on with you. It can be such a tough gig even down the track following treatment. I've got a couple of people in my life who I can contact any time I like if it starts to get to me and we just sit and talk over a cuppa and we can say anything to each other and hopefully have a good laugh as well. All the best Janet! Hugs, Vicki oXo
TonyaM
Member
12 years ago
You're not silly or melodramatic,just preparing yourself for the worst like we all do.This network is for venting your fears so no need to apologise.I'm so relieved for you.Do the happy dance and have a good night's sleep. Love n hugs, Tonya xx
Robyn_W
Member
12 years ago
This is great news!I thought about you yesterday and wondered how you were.You are not melodramatic,and I think like Deanne said,we are all the same when it comes down to it.Take care,and sleep tight tonight.xoxoRobyn
Robyn_W
Member
12 years ago
This is great news!I thought about you yesterday and wondered how you were.You are not melodramatic,and I think like Deanne said,we are all the same when it comes down to it.Take care,and sleep tight tonight.xoxoRobyn
Hazel_M
Member
12 years ago
Hi Jandy, what a relief for you. We all know how thoughts can run away sometimes. I'm thinking you may well have a good night's sleep tonight. I'm so happy for you, you were in my thoughts a lot yesterday and I'm glad the waiting is over for you, take care,

Hazel xx
Janet_Plummer
Member
12 years ago
The x-ray was all clear. Feel a bit silly now. I worked myself up into a dreadful state. Was so sure the cancer was back. GP said the cough may be due to a virus and that I should go back in a week. The tenderness in my side seems to have gone away. Maybe it was a bruise. Sorry ladies if I seemed bit melodramtic. I am obviously very very relieved. Thanks again for your support. It really did help me through a scary time. Janet.
Janet_Plummer
Member
12 years ago
Thank you all so much for your kind words and little anecdotes of hope. They have helped a little. Will post again later.
TonyaM
Member
12 years ago
Oh you poor love,the waiting is so cruel and our thoughts go into overdrive. You may just have sore muscles from coughing.The cough may be a virus but I know you'll be jumping straight to cancer.I had a painful hip for months and then got it xrayed-doctor writes" previous breast cancer" on the form.I felt sick and was sure it was cancer again.It wasn't. I don't drink but I sure had a few reds while I waited.Do whatever you can to be distracted and try not to jump the gun.Your pink sisters know exactly how "the wait"feels. Big hug,Tonya xx