So scared

You are so lucky this site is available to get so much wonderful advice from. Agree with all who say Dr Google not so good but rather use BCNA and cancer council info plus govt sites. The merry go round is not much fun to be on nor the medical steam train I felt was pushing me along as I went from 6 week delay from breastscreen mammogram a hear after Mums death to those fateful words you have cancer you need to speak to your GP to having surgery after 2 days of tests bare week later! Btw mine was lumpectomy for 3cm invasive carcinoma with clear margins and loss of all lymph nodes several of which were infected as I saw on the nuclear scan with lots of sixpennies full of cancer up to my neck and also around to the back. Listen to the medicos, your are lucky to have a good team plus Mum shirl on your side and so many pink sisters. Like you found I was very emotional something hubby and teenage sons found hard , but I was determined to get through to see my sons married only 1 so far 7 years later and expect to be a grandmother like Mum was for My sons. She survived 26 years from initial diagnosis. I was lucky mine was more aggressive so I had the book thrown at me inc Herceptin then a new drug as was Taxol and have surprised the doctors who expected a recurrance by now only issue is lymphoedema. Still on Arimidex and may be for some years yet. Set yourself small goals along the path. Number 1 is get through surgery. Have some front opening tops or nighties.Try not to worry leave that to the doctors. accept help when offered maybe you can suggest to some people that you'd like help with..... if you overdo it you"ll suffer do a little each day after surgery to see how you go and to gain strength. I found I washed every second day then hung out rather than once w eek as when working full time. Its so much easier to keep in touch online now but can be addictive. Perhaps have a break away before chemo starts. Or radiotherapy or to celebrate completion of treatment. mini breaks are better since less of a strain and don't interfere with 3 weekly treatments if that is what you have. Start to meditate, enjoy gentle exercise or tai chi to help you through the journey. Learn to smile at the small things. A good belly laugh is helpful too. Smell the roses look at your garden pets or family. Take photos every step of the way, before surgery, once hair cut, with the kids etc to take them with you on your journey and look back at how far you've come as each mountain becomes a hill and then merely a bump along the road of life. Ask plenty of questions and your pink sisters and medical team will be glad to help. Remember it is your body and you have to live in it. Your pink sister, Carol