So scared.

My apologies for taking so long to respond to all of your posts.  I received a call from the hospital today and my appointment is on Wednesday.  I am panicking because this is an aggressive form of cancer with a high grade.  I was given the "My journey " kit immediately upon getting results of biopsy.  Your many comments have been calming and I have got through today with only a couple of meltdowns.  For some unknown reason as the night draws and it gets closer to bedtime I am shaky, panicky and feel that just want to vomit.  I am a cake decorator and baked my grandsons birthday cake for his party tomorrow, even it has fallen apart in sympathy with me when it broke into 4 pieces as I removed it tonight from the cake tin.  I will have to wait until the morning to see if I can salvage it enough to decorate it - he is turning 3 and I'm sure he wont even notice,  but I will. Thanks for your support and I look forward to speaking with you and my apologies in advance for the meltdowns that will follow xx