Hi
You are spot on when you say it is surreal! It took me a whole 12 months to get my head around it all.
Dont beat yourself up about the mammogram. We as women generally put everyone else before ourselves. I went to the doctor the next day after finding a cyst and it turned out one of my tumours (20mm) was inside the cyst as well as having two others. Thank goodness I didn't ignore the cyst as my breast surgeon said I would have been in real trouble had I waited until my next mammogram that was due in 4 months. The important thing is that you have done something about it now.
The thing is that now you are going to have to put yourself first. It's a hard lesson to learn. Tell all of the women you know your story. It may stop one of them putting off their mammogram and might save someone's life.
Good luck tomorrow with your specialist appointment and for your treatment. Karen xox