Hi Guys,
Once again its the middle of the night and Im up feeling desperately sad. Went shopping today and spent way too much money on shoes..didnt work, still feel awful. Im very lucky to have wonderful family, my sons and their girlfriends have been amazing. They were all here tonight, cooked dinner for me and enjoyed each others company. It is so lovely to share these wonderful times with my family and it breaks my heart to think I wont be there with them. I try so hard to stay positive but Im finding it so hard. Sometimes I have periods of peacefulness and acceptance and then reality hits me and I fall in a heap. I pray for strength, I dont want my kids to remember me as a blubbering mess. Thank you for all your good wishes. I am also on Xeloda, which I start in the morning, hopefully with good effect.
Jacqui