I can relate to some of the feelings you have...& really feel for you....I was always after looking after family & other people & I worked as a carer as well & kind of forgot about myself, I felt tired & warn out.. Since being diagnosed with BC I have been looking after me.. I have been seeing a lovely psychologist & she has been helping me see things in a different light & she has given me many stradergies to help me cope....perhaps seeing a psychologist may help you.. I really do hope that you don't feel so alone now & I'm glad you came on here... The ladies are really lovely here & have lots of information to offer....take care:) Christine :)x....sending big ((hugs)).....