Newbie3312- I try to keep the blinds closed too and don’t ask too much because I know I can’t handle more than what’s directly in front of me. I googled one thing today and I have been totally ill ever since with information I wish I didn’t know. I am having my internal mammary chain radiated because one node is showing up enlarged after having my planning CT. It wasn’t there on my original scans 7 months ago. I knew it was an ominous sign but reading it made it so much worse. My oncologist didn’t make a big deal of it - another PET/ CT showed nothing else - but I know it is associated with a poor prognosis.
So, I am worried about cardiac and pulmonary damage from the rads, but mostly just that my life expectancy is probably pretty short. And there’s not one thing I can do about it. Nasty, nasty disease.