scared s***less

thanks all for the kind thoughts.  it is 5am on day 2. surgery went well and i was in high spirits cos those drugs are goooood, but now it feels like a truck has run over my chest! i spent the night trying to get my head around the big gap on my chest.  i dont know if i succeeded, and i dont think i will be able to look at my scars for a while, but if it helps save my life then i can deal with it. i will have my other breast removed when i am ready for reconstruction as i have a very strong family history, so i guess that is something to look forward to in the future.  just think, most women will end up with their boobs around their stomach - i will have my stomach around my boobs!    love v