scared s***less

I am so sorry to hear about your bc diagnosis but welcome to this network. There are lots of us here who are having treatment or ,like me,finished and out the other end of that dark tunnel.It's very scary at first and quite normal to worry that cancer has spread.Hopefully your body scans will show otherwise and then you can go forward with a plan.As operations go,a mastectomy is the same as a lumpectomy-painwise,drainwise,recoverywise.I've had both. I had a lumpectomy,full node clearance and radiation back in 2003. 7years later bc came back in the same breast,same spot so had to have a mastectomy then chemo. Each time it was classed as early breast cancer,lymph nodes clear, eostrogen+ve,hercept -ve. So I was "lucky"in that respect. I had to have all those body scans when I got bc again and waiting on those results was terrible.Waiting and not knowing are the worst bits of this journey.Once you know what you are dealing with and you have a plan,it's amazing what the body can cope with and how brave you can be.I was 47 yrs old the first time with a daughter doing the HSC -somehow we all got through that year.I had lots of love and support and that helps.I found this network the second time around and the info,support and friendship here is wonderful. It's been over 2 years now since finishing treatment and I'm fine now,enjoying life more than ever.Blog back here for support -you won't feel so alone cos we know what you are going through.Sending hugs - Tonya xx