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lanilumps71
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13 years ago

Scared as hell!!!

Meant to start my first round of chemo tomorrow but got a transfer back to my old hospital!! So glad i did!! instead of 6 months they have suggested 3 months!! I CAN DO THAT!!!!

have been putting this off as long as i can, finding every excuse and changing things just so i can have another fun weekend.... then another!!! This went on all last month!! its like when you were a child and in trouble for something... you know your going to get a smack, you do everything to get out of it and then you realise that its going to come anyway and may as well face it and get it out of the way!!! I am a very strong person.... but i have never been so scared in my life!!! 

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  • Anonymous's avatar
    Anonymous
    13 years ago

    Hi lanilumps,

    3 months! Great :-) Have they told you when you start? Maybe you should speak to your Breast Care Nurse or as Helen suggested speak to the Oncology team as they may be able to put your minds at ease. In the mean time enjoy a fun weekend coming up :-)

  • helen_anne's avatar
    helen_anne
    Member
    13 years ago

    Hi lanilumps

    I felt exactly the same about chemo.  I breezed through my surgeries and all the complications that went with those but when it came to getting chemo...I was terrified.  I think it's great you only have 3 months of it - unfortunately I had much more.

    But I found the way to go was to admit to the Day Oncology staff (who will administer the chemo to you) that you're really scared and I am sure they will put you at ease.  This certainly happened with me.  I sat in the chair, all ready to go and then had a full on panic attack and walked out!!! LOL!  They chased me down the corridor (along with my very embarrassed husband!) and brought me back, then made me a cuppa and had the nurses fully explain (very patiently) every step of the way what they were doing. 

    Knowing what was happening and why helped me cope abd of course having hubby there holding my hand was fantastic!  He even bought me a stuffed knitted teddy-bear from the hospital auxiliary shop which we christened "chemo bear"  who came with me every treatment.

    Chemo bear and I had many cuddles together whilst the chemo was happening and I couldn't have cared less what people thought!  LOL!

    You'll be ok - just tell them you're scared and you want to know what they are going to do every step of the way - remember knowledge is empowering.

    Take care and good luck

    Luv H  (aka Helen Anne)