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Michelle16
Member
15 years ago

Scared and all of the above !!!

As like all of you I am sitting here thinking no way this is happening !!

I was diagnosed on 09/11/10 with BC.

I am in the horrible wait time to see the surgeon / specialists on the 24th.

I am so scared what I am going to be told and what my future holds....

I am only 32 and have a 2 and half year old baby boy and a 9 month old bubby girl !!!! And a supportive fiance'

I am so worried about what extra they may find etc Every ache I get atm I am thinking OMG is it in other places as well.

I first discovered the lump when in hospital just after having my baby girl 9 months ago and was fobbed off as it being my milk coming in. So a few months went by and my little one didnt really take to breast feeding so she went onto formula. Well as the months past I didnt really think about the lump til just the other night I thought gee I havent checked my boobs for months and months I had just better check. Well the lump is bigger and a discharge coming from my nipple when massaged. This was on  Friday night so had the biggest wait til Monday to see my GP she wouldnt comment much and said I really should be seen by a breast clinic. I was rushed thru and seen the very next day and had so many ultra sounds mamograms and 4 core biopsys which on the Wednesday came back as BC

So now I have sat for nearly 2 weeks scared about what I am going to hear at my appointment.

What really makes me cranky is we have a family history of a variety of cancers on both my sides of the family BUT because it hadnt effected my mum or my sister yet I was always given the story of oh no direct family members have had a diagnoses as yet so not to get to worried !!!

Well now Im more than worried I sit here so scared ! I want to see my babies grow up !!!!!!

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    traxx65
    Member
    15 years ago
    Wishing you all the best Michelle. This is a great place to get everything off your chest and ask for opinions about different things and offer up any info you may have. It is such a relief to know that you are not on your own and that how you feel and what you are going through is not unusual for people in your situation. Take care and we are all here to chat and help each other out. Tracey
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    Tanya
    Member
    15 years ago

    Hi Michelle

    I just sent you a personal message. but forgot to add that we all felt the way that you do right now.

     

    Have a read of what I wrote, I was 36 when diagnosed and my kids were 2 and 4.  Now they are old enough to answer back and be embarrassed by there mother!!!!  What the???

     

    Take care and ask anything.

    xx

    Tanya

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    Tanya
    Member
    15 years ago

    Hi Michelle

    I just sent you a personal message. but forgot to add that we all felt the way that you do right now.

     

    Have a read of what I wrote, I was 36 when diagnosed and my kids were 2 and 4.  Now they are old enough to answer back and be embarrassed by there mother!!!!  What the???

     

    Take care and ask anything.

    xx

    Tanya

  • Tanya's avatar
    Tanya
    Member
    15 years ago

    Hi Michelle

    I just sent you a personal message. but forgot to add that we all felt the way that you do right now.

     

    Have a read of what I wrote, I was 36 when diagnosed and my kids were 2 and 4.  Now they are old enough to answer back and be embarrassed by there mother!!!!  What the???

     

    Take care and ask anything.

    xx

    Tanya

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    moira1
    Member
    15 years ago

    hi there Michelle, glad you popped in here, it is a great support to us all on here, and i thinkg our Shirley has just about covered everything here, there are women of all age groups, who have like you have just been diagnoed, through to several years survivors, and i will never forget my surgeon, saying to me, it is a life threatning disease, but its not a life sentence, and i agree with shirl, the waiting at the beginning is always the worst, not knowing whats happening to our bodies, and being out of control, but we will be thinking of you tommorrow and hopefully you will get a bit more positive information, if you havent ordered the my journey kit, then i really urge you to do so, it has info, not only for you but family and friends as well, and is written by people who have made or are making this horrible journey. So good luck on Wednesday, please feel free to add me to your contacts and keep in touch Regards Moira X

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    ShirlO
    Member
    15 years ago

    Hi there Michelle, I'm so pleased you have called in for a chat. ..... we are here to support you, listen to you and hopefully help you through this journey you are on.

    One way or another we have all been where you are now.  You will be going through so many emotions at the moment ..... and those days of uncertainty between diagnosis and specialists visits are so overwhelming.

    Have you received your "My Journey" kit yet ... maybe your breast care nurse has already given it to you, if not you can order it here on line.  It is a free service and is full of so much information .... all compiled in language that we can all understand and written by people who understand who we are and what it is we are experiencing.

    I'm not going to tell you not to be scared, you have every right to feel this way.  Once you have seen the surgeons and specialists and they have laid out their "plan of attack" you can start your own "plan of attack".

    Gather your support group around you ..... your family and friends will smother you with love and concern but you must remember they are as frightened as you are and at times you will feel they are being "pushy".  They don't mean to be, they love you and want to help..

    The next few weeks will be like a whirlwind of more tests, appointments etc etc.  One thing that is important ..... always take someone with you to these appointments as a second pair of ears.  You will have so much info buzzing around in your head at one time you will find it impossible to absorb it all.

    Then there is US - BCNA - your new extended family!!!!!  We are all here to help you so please pop in and chat to us.  What ever your mood ... if you want to cry, scream, throw a tantrum or just chat - we are here for you.

    Ask any questions you want ..... whatever the problem someone will have "Been there - Done that".  remember - knowledge is power!!!!

     None of us asked for this BLOODY THING, but now we have it we will not let it defeat us. Where are you living?  Let me know, in all probability there is a support group in your area.  I can check that out for you.

    I'm going to click you for a contact - I hope you accept.  Please msg me at any time ... my details are on my profile page.

    Will be thinking of you on Wednesday ......

    Take care ... Cheers ..

    Shirl xxx