Sandy47
15 years agoMember
Sandy
I think all you ladies are fantastic.
I have known about Cancer for 6 weeks now and have sufferred in silence.
I should have posted a blog before now, but I didn't realise how supportive everyone...
sorry if this is too blunt for you Sandy, but...
Don't worry how your emotions go Sandy. My tears come freely and often. Other people will think you are strong just going through what you are going through and YOU ARE! :)
I sometimes find myself crying over incidentals and other people can't understand why - I've reached the stage where I don't care who sees me at my weakest moment as I know I am brave going through all this.
Look at what happened to you - first the diagnosis - if that didn't knock the wind out of your sails, you did extraordinary well.
Then the meeting with the surgeon discussing what will/won't happen, the surgery, the treatment, the after math - every stage you go through is a new lesson in living and what you took for granted (like dressing in five minutes - it takes me 20 minutes now) is going to take you longer, or you may need help doing it. Don't fret - you'll get back to "normal". If not -who cares. You are still you. Let go of your emotions - don't let others take that right away from you! Lose control - so what!
I am sorry to be so blunt, I have had a roller coaster - like everyone else here and it hurts at times when other people want to tell me what to do or what not do - unless they are walking in your shoes, they can't possibly understand what you are feeling.
Be you, and don't worry about losing control. Learn to love the new you and you will be fine.
Hope this helps.
Take care of you
Sandy xx