Sad and lonely

SO Sorry to see you joining our 'club', angea​ - the one no-one ever thought they'd join  :(   You've had 2 lots of surgeries & are still in recovery - so it is pretty natural to be a bit sad  - Let your tears flow .... I think many of us have gone thru some sadness, even a bit of depression now & then .... iserbrown​ has given some great advice - I am sure that chatting with our helpline on Monday morning will help you xx

Also, Consider checking out Charlotte Tottman's podcasts on her own cancer story - she is a specialist cancer psychologist who was diagnosed herself with BC and had a double mastectomy, choosing to remain flat.   She 'thought' she knew what most of the 'procedure' would be - so was really surprised when she had similar reactions to her own clients ... and she talks about it, what she expected vs what happened.  She is very easy to listen to - You can just listen to individual sessions, or just start at the 1st one & work your way thru.  xx    What You Don't Know Until You Do ....
http://www.drcharlottetottman.com.au/my-podcast.html

Sadly, this diagnosis mucks more with our brains even more than your body, I reckon ... I just try & keep myself as busy as I can, doing things I love doing. This all depends on your recovery too - just do 'stuff' as you are able to  xx    

Take care & all the best