It is a shock in the beginning Tracey,but try not to get too far ahead of yourself.Take it one day at a time(easier said than done)and when you need help and advice,come to this AMAZING network,where you will be supported by other ladies who know exactly what you are going through.All the best with your specialist appointment.Once you have done that,things start moving along,and you will feel as though you have a plan,and you are not just waiting.Remember to come back on here and let us know how you are doing. :) Xoxo Robyn