Recon choices

Hi all thanks for your responses. Im not being pushed into recon. I wanted it over and done with but i know its not as simple as that. Most of it is because i just want to get o  with my life. I want to study next year which ive deferred already becasuse of this. Ill have to work full time too due to finances too. So thinking at minimum next 2 years will be too busy to do recon so another delay.and i want to find a partner and was trying to meet someone before this after being single for many many years. So there are all these things running through my mind. Its confusing and frustrating and can i deal with the recon id go implant process atm with new job or have to wait. This cancer makes me over think everything and im actually sick of having to think.