Recently diagnosed

Hi Fleur! 

Yes it is funny how at the time you feel kind of rude putting a lot of pressure on the doctor and now I think back and think... thank GOD I did. I'm not sure whether I'll be able to see her again, I feel she really let me down. 

I'm sorry to hear about your diagnosis but the trial sounds very positive and I'm glad to hear you're responding so well. Looking forward to a positive outcome for you. I can very much relate to what you are saying about the see-saw of emotions. I do find it helps me to have a "daily mission" where I have something (of various import) to do. To accomplish that means that if the rest of the day is bad movies and tissues, that's okay :)

I have since been to a support group meeting and was discussing with some of the girls there about the registrar and several of them think they have come up against him too. In fact one of them was going to complain about him because he looked at the results of a scan and said that a shadow "could be cancer" and then moved on, leaving her in shock. The oncologist confirmed that they were satisfied that it wasn't cancer and explained why. So why the registrar had to scare the poor girl I've no idea!

I have sort of calmed down about the sterile thing, now. My priority is to deal with the cancer and then after that, I will see what happens. I do believe that everything I do is guided so I am okay with leaving that in the lap of the gods as there isn't anything I can do about it right now. 

I will look into the massage.

Thanks for your love, thinking of you too xx