Really feel upset; need to talk to someone

I really appreciatted your thoughts and comments on your post.  Funny thing, last night I sent a very private email to both my daughters (I also have 3 sons & 2 step children - one girl and one boy) Now last night when I sent the emails to the girls, I really pored my heart out and I didn't care.  The eldest one responded with a phone call tonight and we talked - she admitted that she hated even thinking about it, and yes she had been 'avoiding me' because she 'didn't know what to say'.  I told her I needed to talk all about it, the good and bad, I needed to hear from her and yes it is cancer and yest there is a rough road ahead, but help me with it - and she said she would rather have it  than me - I told her never to say that! she has three gorgeous little babies - I told her I thought she should 'really think about those scans in the future, for herself and the girls' - with my sister having bc, the odds are not in their favour.  We did have a lovely chat - but I had to rush to the loo! Oops a side affect of todays chemo? Please keep in touch as you are a rare and beautiful person, I can tell by the compassion and understanding backed up by a lot of intelligence x x x Josie