Well its been 3 mths since my diagnosis and today I looked in the mirror and thought. Bloody hell I do have bc. No hair and no boobs. Dont know what has been in my head these last 3 mths. Not cancer. ??Had 2nd round of chemo last wed and it seems to be day 4 when it hits hard. Flat out getting out of bed. I miss my cooking, eating and a lovely glass of wine. Havent had a cry in ages. Dont know whats wrong with me today. 4 day blues ??
I think we all have moments where the reality crashes in to us. I was talking to a family member the other day about my next oncologist appointment & the thought that immediately followed was " how is it that I need to see an oncologist". In some ways it's still not real, ten months after diagnosis, & after chemo, surgery & radiotherapy.
I always found days 4-7 or 8 post chemo were my worst, physically & emotionally.
Take care, Lyn
Every round was different for me and I couldn't plan much at all as each day was different. Just when I thought I was coming good another side effect would lay me down. At least I am surviving and that's the most important thing. Hang in there. XXXX
Hi Airlie,
Sound about right to me.....chemo sucks....I crashed this time (my second round as well) at the same day (4).....but today (day 13) I feel good! have been out out to dinner (although my taste buds didn't help much with that!) and have been able to drive locally to the shop etc....
You will have days of exhaustion, days of feeling "empty" and days that have that glimmer of the old you...just take each day as it is...
Wishing you all the best
Xx
Hi Airlie
this is hardly surprising. You've been caught up in the whirlwind of diagnosis, telling others and supporting them and their reactions, getting yourself and your family organised for whilst you have treatment, drs appointments, tests, surgery, beginning treatment etc, etc. The list goes on! It is a shock when it hits that boy, this is really happening to me! Be kind to yourself, take the time to cry if you need to and perhaps plan something nice for yourself on the days that you feel up to it. Take care. Karen xox
*hugs*
I know this post is pretty useless, but damn it you're getting me e-hugs.
For your enjoyment or eye-rolling, my partners response to "I might end up with no hair" was "We're going to save so much on shampoo!". *face-palm*
Hi Airlie, day 3- 6 after chemo are the pits. I can remember looking in the mirror and not recognising myself. I lost my identity and felt like the bride of Frankenstein.But you'll get yourself back bit by bit.Have a good cry when you need to but don't despair,you'll get through it and come out an amazing,strong woman.xx
I found day 4 onwards hard too. I think we accept feeling off but you just get fed up. Might also be the come down from the dex. Kath.
