Hi everyone, thank you for all your responses and tips. Just having my feelings acknowledged helps. I just hate cancer and what it has done to me and my life. I worry nearly every minute of the day of how to get my life back. I have lost all confidence. ie just yesterday I pulled up at the doctors to pick up a script and someone I knew but hadn't seen for months was there. I drove away and asked them to fax the script to the chemist rather than have to face those people.
Maybe now this site is finally back up and running (in a fashion) I'll have some support to get me through the next 12 months. The support from others going through the same thing is the only support I want right now and with so many members there's always someone available on here. That would have been an enhancement ....a chat button... where you could speak directly to members that are online at the same time.....I have thought about the cancer council hotline but I am so emotional that I can't talk on the phone because once I start crying I cant stop.
Thank you all and I hope you're all having a good day. Nicole x