Hi Almal and thank you for your support. I felt just like you. I sought out counselling through the system which wasn't helping ( found out all to late they assigned me a social worker instead) so I sought out a private psychologist who couldn't end up fitting me in a second time in 8 weeks. So I just went it alone. May still seek out a better psychologist yet but I just need to settle in back home and get some physio on my arm which feels like it did after surgery again. Swollen, weak and aching. That's helping for now. One day at a time. Love to you all and thanks for responding. Nicole x ♥