Yep it sure is a roller coaster of feelings, when i had radiotherapy i had to stay 650ks away. even though pats only pay one round trip, my husband tried to spend time with me, and continue keeping our business going, and we would drive the 6 hours every friday and back on the monday, so i could see my little dogs, lol. i was lucky with my radiotherapy, most days for the whole 6 weeks, i was in and back out before my appointments was due, It is a bit scary at first with the machine, but i then started chilling out for the few minutes it took, and felt like lying there for a while longer lol. no chance, one in one out unfortunately. Keep putting your cream on, and hopefully you wont have too much problems, how long are your having it for? Just remember we are all here for you, so please let us know how you are going with it. Moira