Pre-menopause Hormone pos: HER2 neg
Hi all even my discussion title makes me breath deeply. I’m 42 and was diagnosed on Aug 11th. I’m half way through my radiotherapy and just found out I’ll be undergoing chemo too. I got my head somewh...
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Hello @NelSky 🙂
I was diagnosed in Feb, at 39, and felt everything you’re feeling. A lot of crying, fear, terror, hope, then back to fear, overwhelmed by it all. Whole world completely changed, feeling like I was on another planet. Lots of sleepless nights, lots of naps during the day due to depression etc. Also feeling very sad for myself and my then 7yr old daughter. I didn’t do the expensive oncotype whatever test, and chemo seemed of little benefit, so i didn’t do it. But when I thought that I would have to it scared the crap out of me. I did radiation, which also scared me initially, but it ended up actually being fun in the end, going in and seeing the staff there and having chats and laughs with them. I had a double mastectomy before radio, and I’m still coming to terms with the fact my breasts are now fake, but it’s slowly getting better. One thing that helped me A LOT was psychologists. I saw one during my depression, through the hospital, and am seeing another one now through the medical oncologist. She has done wonders for me. I finished treatment just over 2 months ago, and still need more surgery, but most of the time I forget I even had it. I haven’t even been given the all clear yet, but I refuse to be a victim. I choose to be a thriver. It took a lot of effort to get to this place mentally and emotionally, and it’s still a work in progress, but I’m 100% happier than I was even before my diagnosis.
I was diagnosed in Feb, at 39, and felt everything you’re feeling. A lot of crying, fear, terror, hope, then back to fear, overwhelmed by it all. Whole world completely changed, feeling like I was on another planet. Lots of sleepless nights, lots of naps during the day due to depression etc. Also feeling very sad for myself and my then 7yr old daughter. I didn’t do the expensive oncotype whatever test, and chemo seemed of little benefit, so i didn’t do it. But when I thought that I would have to it scared the crap out of me. I did radiation, which also scared me initially, but it ended up actually being fun in the end, going in and seeing the staff there and having chats and laughs with them. I had a double mastectomy before radio, and I’m still coming to terms with the fact my breasts are now fake, but it’s slowly getting better. One thing that helped me A LOT was psychologists. I saw one during my depression, through the hospital, and am seeing another one now through the medical oncologist. She has done wonders for me. I finished treatment just over 2 months ago, and still need more surgery, but most of the time I forget I even had it. I haven’t even been given the all clear yet, but I refuse to be a victim. I choose to be a thriver. It took a lot of effort to get to this place mentally and emotionally, and it’s still a work in progress, but I’m 100% happier than I was even before my diagnosis.
Cry as much as you need to, throw tantrums, scream and punch pillows, but also know that you will feel wonderful again. You just need to believe in yourself and your body. We were created to be very strong, and that strength is in you. Be patient, take it a step at a time, allow each phase to run its course, and you’ll be a happy and improved you in no time.
All the best, and read positive posts to keep your optimism going. We’ve all been to hell, that’s a given, but we don’t need to stay there 🍀❤️.
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