Thank you @Dory65
Yes, no decision feels quite right when chemo sets off so many side effects. Diagnosis was mid Aug 2020.
I have a lot of ok days which have allowed me to continue work in some capacity and manage life as the ʻcurrent new meʻ. Its the off feelings on the off days that mount up.They are the hard ones to get through.
I am now having fortnightly bloods and with all the chemo, have been told it is normal for the readings to drop and to expect the known, common side effects.
I look up and find hope, courage, strength and healing in the soft movements of the clouds; I see the blue skies and sun smiling down and warming my inner parts when hurting, I feel the wind and its own movements weaving in and out of the surrounding trees and watch the leaves perform their own dance choreography - they lighten my day and bring joy. No its not all doom and gloom, its just incredibly hard on some days, every week.
It feels like Iʻm constantly carting around a fire extinguisher - ready to try and put out the next fire.
My apologies for waffling....but thank you xx
