Thank you @Afraser.
The counsellor and I have delved into most of these questions and it pans out ok when I am feeling more ok (ish) than not.
I also gently explore my own questions in my quiet time; a curse or a blessing, I also am a counsellor.
When cancer, chemo and their entourage follow you and have forced changes in your present and play a part, even on mute, in your future - how do you maintain influence to change what you want?
I see cancer as the ʻrogueʻ and chemo ʻas the good/bad guyʻ - the one invited in to conquer cancer. In the interim, chemo breaks down every pipe line, thatʻs what it has been recruited to do. That is what I find difficult. It does not contain itself only within the body but has a ripple effect and can tarnish friendships, family connections, work, etc.
What you say makes sense about the unaffected person. I was a very active carer to cancer and I guess the approach I had differs immensely to what I see from those unaffected persons towards my cancer situation.
One can talk the talk but can they walk it... x
