Hello Tonya, thank you for your input....SO appreciated! My surgeon was actually a woman who I thought would be MORE supportive but you never know. Like I said I think on the day she was overwhelmed by the number of patients she had to see in a short period (which still doesn't excuse the behaviour!). But I'm over it now and putting it behind me and moving on for sure! I agree that the longer it takes to do the chemo the better as in-between I can keep on recovering as I am really worried I won't be well enough to cope with it, but then on the other hand you want the chemo to start to give you the best chance you can get. All very daunting to say the least as you know yourself! Yes the auxillary clearance is just damn awful and I had no idea about the pain you would get with this procedure as nobody forwarned me on this bit, plus was not expected to occur so I hadn't done any research either! And to go from full mobility in the arms to very little is extremely frustrating. I push myself each and every day with the movement as I know eventually it MUST improve!!! I am concentrating now too on fund raising with my daughter who is going in the Mothers Day Classic for "Team Jan" which is fantastic as it does affect each and every family member and gives them something to take their minds off things also. I think anything to keep busy and keep your mind off "the cancer" does help! We now also have my husband's father at the end of his life and now in pallitive care.....at the moment in our house the dramas seem to be on-going. Jan xxx