Hi there, dont get too down on yourself, everyone finds recovery from such massive surgery different. I was like you and struggled for weeks. I had to go back to the surgeon twice a week to have it drained for 8 weeks all up. It must be hard with littlies still to look after. I only had myself and it took me a good 3 months to get anywhere back to normal. Take it one step at a time and keep up with the exercises, as much as you can. Im still doing mine coming up to 2 years post surgery. I hope you have favorable results. Take care. xxx.