please not again!!!!

Hi Joleeh, I can feel your anxiety, and I know what it feels like. I had the same experience about 3 months ago. I was approaching 9 months since diagnosis, and I had completed chemo, and had booked in for a second mastectomy and the start of reconstruction. I went and had a mammogram and ultrasound, so I could have up to date records for my surgeon. The mammo was clear, (like last time), but the ultrasound showed a lesion. This was like history repeating itself. I was devastated, and the radiologist looked grim faced and said," we'll do a core biopsy because it looks suspicious". He assured me it definitely wouldn't be a cyst, and the irregular edge and dense appearance also had me very worried. I had 2 days of heightened anxiety, and was convinced I had another cancer. I chose to ignore those that reminded me that 9 out 10 lumps are benign, because I had walked this journey before and it all looked ominous. Well, I was lucky, and it was benign. The relief I felt when the call came through was out of this world. This time it was a lesion with fibrocystic changes. Even the radiologist got it wrong this time. Last time, the lesion was accidently found, and no one seemed at all concerned. Even the radiologist said, " I don't think it is anything other than a little cyst, and we could do a fine needle biopsy if you want". ( the lump I was having checked was just fibrous glandular tissue, and this other little lesion didn't seem like anything significant). I really can understand how you are feeling, and I want to remind you about the 9 out of 10 being normal, but I also understand if you don't want to take that on board. One thing this scare did for me, was to convince me whole heartedly, that my decision for a second mastectomy was the right thing for me to do. I have no regrets about having removed this non cancerous breast. I didn't want to give it a chance to let me down like the last one did. How long will you have to wait for the biopsy and the results? I will be thinking of you as you wait, and I'll say a prayer for you as well. Love from Chris xx

So sorry to hear this and you must be worried. I hope the test goes well and you find there is nothing to be concerned about?  Here's hoping.  Cross fingers - and toes!!!

It is what every survivor dreads - you are not alone. I hear of women who never have it back and of some who have it back three times....and of course we must face it and fight the battle - whatever happens.

Keep your chin up !

Brissie Lyn xx