Please excuse my venting....grrrr..

Hi ladies,  I have just been googling to see what all the big words on my recent CT scan of my neck, chest, abdo mean. (I only got a copy of the report from my GP last Friday - test done 26-8-11)  Both my specialist surgeon(primary service provider) and my medical oncologist have said all is good with the testing.  Bloody hell when I have read the report there are a couple of things that I would like more explanation on.  !!!!  I feel so "out of my depth" trying to "see" if I should be worried or not.  I feel that I am a guinea pig not a real person to these people. (even though my GP and my specialist surgeon are lovely and I have a good rapport with them - they are JUST TOO BUSY)   Personally I think that the medical profession has lost it due to the numbers of cases.  It really is a "bandaid" approach.  I have now finished chemo over 4 months ago and still feel like "crap" - no energy and so lethargic with heaps of aches and pains.  I just need to know WHY then I would be okay.  But no-one will give me answers - just more pills which turn me into a zombie.  I have chosen to "keep" the pains and ditch the pills.  How many practitioners can one go to - Podiatrist, Massage therapists, Acupunturist, Herbal Chinese Man??  I keep this to myself but it is getting harder to avoid others seeing me "look like I have the body of an 85 year old".  My poor husband only really "sees" my pain during my "sleep" when I toss and turn all night.  I really don't know where to turn to OR just get out there and live it as much as I can all the time trying to forget about all the bc issues.    Sorry for venting but it appears that there is a real issue here for us all. XLeonie