I have been to hell and back darling and not by the scenic route!!! LOL By the sound of it you have been put through the wringer too, for a lot more ailments than what I have had? Please know how sorry I am that this has happened to you, but let it give you more strength than ever before. When i got my PMR the doc thought I had cancer then. Thinking I had dodged a bullet and only had the 'Polymylagia Rheumatica' I had a better acceptance even though it had certainly tested my faith in the medical profession!!! Then when I got cancer I wondered why my body had upped the ante as it were?
I try to look at what has happened in my life as a true test of me as a person, and sometimes i feel better for it. Other times I feel so inferior to the universe and wonder what this whole plan is all about? I had to say 'Why me repeatedly with the PMR and accept it for its face value, but cancer? Well...? That was a whole different ball game?
My husband and I would cuddle together on the bed and I would ask him '"Why had this happened to me?" He would say "Nobody knows, but just take notice of the fact that you live in the best country in the world to treat your cancer." "Any other third world country and you would surely die!" And you know what he is so right. We have access to all the most recently developed treatments for all cancers in this country, and survival rates are higher now than even 10 years ago. So just keep the faith huny ok?
I hope you have great results and will be thinking of you next week. Take care Always XXX Mia.
