Hi @Tasia,
Sorry to hear you are having a hard time. Im still on Taxol after doing AC. They are both crap but different. Taxol seems like it is a bit more unrelenting to me as it usually gets delivered in shorter durations and there are more of them. I feel a bit depressed in the 2 or 3 days after delivery as energy levels plummet, the other symptoms fire up. It feels like all the good things in me are dying and nothing will ever be good again. But as the next one rolls around suddenly i feel a bit better though it is only a couple of days to "enjoy". Is it like that for you?
I think you are amazing doing it on your own and living alone but do you need to? Your adult children you could confide that some days are rough and encourage them to give you a call. Maybe they could drop by with some shopping and a cuppa. Ive had a few very low moments and rang my 70ish parents to tell them i feel im going mentally a bit wierd and would love a cuppa. Even when still feeling unwell that can lift you. Its not about not coping but allowing others to be part of the experience and hear about their lives , offering hope that other experiences are out there.
I cross off each chemo on my calendar and silently high five myself for surviving snother week.
Sending you a hug and hoping it gets a bit easier.
Michele
Dear Michelle,
Yes it is very much like that. Chemo during weeks 1-3 was administered with pauses in between as I have allergies from a hair dye 2019 and am now fall in the anaphylactic category. The reason I cannot use the nail polish or strengthener as it has Formaldehyde.
I have managed life and as a working gypsy on my own for some time. The adult children are involved in my experience but each have their own young family and responsibilities. I am also very determined and independent. My greatest flaw is in asking for help. I guess, I reflect on myself and how I have responded in similar situation as the daughter, friend when illness of this or similar nature has coming knocking on ones door; I have never needed to be asked for help, I am present to offer it (old school raising perhaps ?). That is the difference for me, I might be wrong in my mentality.
Maybe something for me to work on.
It is wonderful to have your parents, I know that if mine were still part of this life - a cuppa would have been on the table.
Thank you to you and I am sending you my warmest wishes and hug xx
