The worrying and the waiting is the hardest bit. It is a shame with the timing of the holidays dragging things out even more for you.
Please use this site to talk with others who are going through or have been through all this too. I found reading other people's bloggs helped to prepare me for what was to come. Reading real stories seemed to help more than just reading all the standard info that you get from doctors, cancer council etc.
Beware of some of the forums that you find on google however, they can be a very unreliable source of info. BCNA is a great trustworthy Australian source of info that you can rely on.
All the best for your next op and whatever treatment you need. Sophie is right just take it one step at a time. It is not a situation that any of us want to be in, but you will find lots of support from the women on here when you need it, holidays or not! Take care and good luck. Deanne xxxxoooo