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joadavis
Member
15 years ago

one emotional day after another!

hi ladies...... i hope u r all going well in this world of breast cancer. Its been a while since ive blogged bc i have had a poo of a few weeks. let me explain! lol! a had first of taxatere 3 weeks ago.. well that was experience! 9 times to look for a vein and then an allergic reaction. but u gotta love the steroids but then BANG after a few days i felt like i was hit by a bus! i was told this wood be easier than FEC but no im thinking very different haha! my poor muscles! i have a hrt scan wednesday as i was getting slight loss of breath and sore chest....any one else get that? bad thrush aswell yuk! then i had a port put in monday just gone... ive called it barry haha not sure why but o I think its the way im dealing with life at the moment and then i had chemo yesterday alonmg with hercepton! that was interesting! blood didnt come out so the nurse stabbed me one more time with a massive needle then hooray we have lift off! haha but id rather that than them looking and diggin for a vein.lol!

But now my emotional state has gone back to where i was a few months ago,,, everyday about the most random crap so i might have to see a councillor but ul be glad to hear than im trying new things :) mediatation/art therapy and next chi ball haha thanks to another BCNA person whom ive met on here :) u know who u are!!! any way u take care out there beautiful ladies xoxxoxo

4 Replies

  • Sorrentino-Mari's avatar
    Sorrentino-Mari
    Member
    15 years ago

    Hey Jo, I finally got what I wanted to send you to your house, I am a bit lazy, but this afternoon I am going to try to go to the post office...Keep strong as you always were...Sending you my strengh (the little I have left!!)...be happy just thinking you are almost done!!!! I am very proud of you!

    Leonor

  • pisces_tas's avatar
    pisces_tas
    Member
    15 years ago

    i am thinking of you at this time, and i agree with the other posts.  it is a tough journey and it is ok to ask for help.

    thanks for the post and glad you are hanging in there.

    kathy.

     

     

     

  • Bardoe's avatar
    Bardoe
    Member
    15 years ago

    Taxotere is the toughest !  but hopefully you only have 3 left now after your post,

    I had a roster as i was knocked off my feet for 5 days each session and needed some help to get dinner etc and basically laid on the couch for most of 3 months as seems to affect your blood irons levels - so no energy at all.

    So hang in there, get some good dvd TV series to watch -  I had Entourage - great show !  was my little highlight during the really crap times.

    I could also feel the taxotere during the first week, all around my chest, as it works through the lymph/circulation system, its weird, thrush too, and the strangest finger nails,  pink, brown and white then have extra 4 white stripes across each nail, but at least they didnt split and break :)

    take care with food as not sure what happened to me but ended up with gastro twice, its was probably the drug towards the end, make sure you have Immodium? & gastrolyte  handy in the cupboard just in case. remember one day at a time, and its ok to have crap days on taxotere

    because its there to help you/all of us in the long run !

    take care xox, Bardoe

  • TonyaM's avatar
    TonyaM
    Member
    15 years ago

    Yes Jo,I'm with you.I thought Taxotere was the pits.For about 3 days you feel like roadkill from a mack truck.I had a shocka of a headache but didn't get the sore chest.Other ladies on this site have complained of that though.Wow,9 attempts at your veins-you are so brave.I would have done a runner by attempt 3.I think it's a good idea to see a councillor because you are going through so much.Not many of us get through this bc journey without some sort of help.I ended up on a low dose of antidepressant and it helped me.Hey,you are only human and it's normal to be emotional about all this stuff you have to deal with- especially at your age.Thinking of you Jo.

                                             Tonya xx