Now What?
Have you ever woken up and realised that life as you once knew it is gone. You may have spent 2013 in a blur of Doctors and Hospitals and living in constant fear that this crap called cancer will com...
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I felt really strange when I finished my chemo and my oncologist told me she didn't need to see me for 3 months. I felt almost bereft! I was so used to seeing her every three weeks that all of a sudden my security was gone. When I finished surgery and had my follow up appointment, my surgeon said he see me in six months. When I'd pretty much finished my major treatment, I felt like life was telling me "I'll see you in 12 months". I feel like everyone is a year ahead and I had a 'Hiatus' from life in 2013. Don't get me wrong, I felt light as air when midnight came ushering in 2014. It felt like a huge weight had been lifted from my shoulders. But I had my 'back to work' plan meeting with my supervisor yesterday and it was the first time I'd been in my office since Feb 2013 and it felt totally alien. It was like I was going for a job interview. Yes I am lucky I have a job to go back to but the girl who was doing my job has had a promotion which I have been working towards for the past couple of years now. I was going to apply for it last year but......... So I have decided to 'move on'.
I know it will take a bit to catch up to myself but I am still taking things one day at a time. I am embracing life again and loving it.
I hope your feeling of 'what now' doesn't last but it's natural to feel a bit lost. You can only move forward from here.
Love and hugs Janey xxx