Not sure what I'm meant to be feeling

Basically breast cancer is grief reaction. We mourn the loss of our breasts, our life before cancer, our life before feeling scared and being anxious. Just like loss of a loved one tbete are different stages and I believe we just need to accept that is how you feel now and it too will pass. I lost my 2 pwg guinea pigs around the dame time as my cancer diagnosis. As much as I was sad on tbe day it was a relief to think one less thing to worry about during surgery 500km from whete I live. Itvis only now I acknowledge mussing them. Cutting up veggies make me sad...seeing the spot whete their cage was. It is 5 months since they passed and it is only now I am no longer numb and can geel this. So long winded I know...but just do what you feel like now. Work if you want..or don't. Slob around if you want and hust eatch TV...hell I bought myself a recliner. Just because you arent5 having chemo it doesn't  make it any less traumatic. This is life changing...process it, let those different emotional stages happen. You will feel like doing things that give you joy again...you will know when. We are forever changed from this cancer... Take Care. Kath x