Hello and welcome to the online network:) I am 2 and a half years past my final chemo,and getting on with my life:) I don't comment on posts much any more,but when I read yours,I could just feel your anxiety so I hope that I can help you:) I think that most of us are shocked when we get that initial diagnosis.I know that I was scared witless!!! I had NEVER been in a hospital in my life,and to hear the word mastectomy shocked me to my core!!! You will find,that after the first few weeks you begin to accept your diagnosis,and when that happens,you start to do whatever you need to,to get on with it!!! You are a lot stronger than you know at this point,so don't think that you won't cope with things,because YOU WILL!! I found the mastectomy to be relatively pain free,and I only really needed a few panadol to get through the first few days.Make sure you do any exercises you are given,to prevent stiffness and problems later on.As for chemo,maybe I was lucky,but I didn't find it as bad as what I was fearing.I had my head shaved the week before chemo started.( my oncologist actually suggested this)and it was the best thing! I grew to love having no hair! Until it happens,you don't really understand how it feels,but not having to wash and style hair,or shave legs and armpits,is a real bonus!!!lolNone of us want to get BC,but when we do,try to accept it,be happy with the attention and love that will come your way,and remember,that BC is VERY treatable! Nearly all ladies go on to lead healthy ,long lives.I have never felt better than what I do now.Stay in touch on here,because this forum will become like a second family while you go through treatment.Try not to worry,because you are going to manage just fine:) Cheers Robyn xox