Newly Diagnosed with young baby

Hi and welcome to BCNA.  I am so sorry that you find yourself in this situation and can't imagine how hard it would be for you just having had your little baby 3 months ago.  I completely understand though how your mind goes to very dark places and how your heart breaks when you look at your little ones.  I think in the beginning we all felt this when we looked at our loved ones grappling with our news. 

It is vitally important that you try to take one day at a time and live in the moment.  You don't want to be terrorizing yourself with imaginings that will only rob you of happiness and joy with your children.   Some days it is harder than others but if you are finding you are not coping emotionally please seek the help of a psychologist.  It really does help to have someone to talk to about our fears and concerns without being judged or told to cheer up. 

Once you start your chemo you will settle into the process and find that "anticipation is worse than participation".  I am sure too than once you know that lump is shrinking you are going to feel a whole lot more positive.  Great news that it didn't spread to your nodes. 

I have just finished my chemo three weeks ago and have now had two rounds of radiation.  Looking back on the chemo it was no walk in the park but we make it through and already it is becoming a blur.  The fatigue for me was the most frustrating and in your case ask and accept all the help you can.

Please stay connected to this forum and ask as many questions as you need to. 

Big hugs to you.

Love

Joy xx