Hi Melanie,
Don't beat yourself up about feeling down, it's a natural emotion just try to back it up with a better day the next day, fake it till you make it!!!
Yes I have to have a mastectomy not because of family history but because its in three milk ducts so they can't just remove it. I am currently deciding whether to do a double because of family history. The genetics are saying that I'm not at high risk of it re occurring in the other breast but I have a 20% chance.
Whilst this isn't high enough to be too concerned its not low enough to not worry about it.
I am leaning towards a double as I just don't want to have to go through this again.
Chin up darl, it will get better.
Anne xx