Newly diagnosed and scared

I'm sorry to hear you are on the bc ride at such a young age.It's so unfair and so random.So many of us don't fit the bc risk profile.But welcome to this network where you will get lots of information and support.There is a young women's group on here if you want to join.Some of us are going through treatment and some,like me,are over it all.Yes,middle of the night seems to be the worst time when your fears can overwhelm you.I would just get my husband's arm around me and I'd feel a little safer.Finding out all the info you can on treatments /drugs also helps you to make informed decisions.Have you ordered the "my journey kit"yet? It's helpful and it's free.I think it's good news that your lymph nodes were clear -that gives you a really good prognosis. I can understand you being scared about radiation-I was too.Have all your questions been answered?Pin your radio oncologist down and ask-  you need to feel comfortable with your decision.Radiation treatment itself,is not too bad.It's abit scary at first but you get used to the drill.By the end of the treatment I was tired and my boob was red.Now I was in the unlucky 8% whose cancer came back(7 years later) in the same spot despite radiation.I will say that I didn't follow through with Tamoxifen cos I had bad side effects from it at the time.I had to have a mastectomy and then chemo and am now on Tamoxifen.Because I'm through menopause,it seems to be agreeing with me this time.I've been all clear for over 2yrs now and enjoying life.I've beaten cancer twice so I'm not so scared now which may sound strange.You'll be ok Melanie-do your research and go with what feels right for you.I would say though,take Tamoxifen when the time comes and if you get side effects then know that there are drugs to counteract them.We are all here for you and know what you are going through so don't feel alone.Blog back here for support or to vent your feelings-it helps.

                   Sending hugs - Tonya xx