Hi there
Oh honey I feel so bad when this happens to a young one like you,it's not fair.
I presume that your are HER2 neg, you didn;t say. That usually comes with chemo attached. I too am waiting to start radiation having finished my chemo. Stage 1 Grdae 1 IDC, clear nodes and margins, ER+ and HER2+.
I think the waiting in between things is the hardest. I just want to get on with it and get it over.
After a bit you stop thinking about the ones that come back (well most of the time anyway) and just focus on treating THIS one and moving on. There is nothing to be gained from worrying about something you can't do anything about. The risks are there, of course they are, but the survival rate now is 90%, that's amazing ! Think about that and not the risk of recurrence. You'll drive yourself nuts. If it happens, you;ll deal with it then.The thought will sneak intoyour head whenyou least expect it- usually in the middleof the night when you can't sleep - but push it away and replace it with a happy thought.
Live with and love your family. Make plans for the future, those are the things that matter right now.
lots of love
magicmum