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Hi Alsopt, I had first chemo on Thursday 15th.  Felt ok for 2 days then today, Saturday - whooshka!! Tired, brain dead and nauseus.   Nothing normal here!!! Crazy town! Hopefully tomorrow is a better one. trying to complete an essay for uni .  A lot of crap is being written xx

Hey Melvery how did u go? I survived 3rd ac up for 4th next Tuesday go us xxx I've missed some posts so my apologies I'm brain dead after chemo for a week last one knocked out my white cells glad to say neuglasta injection got them up I'm almost normal lol define normal til tues xx 

Hi Alsopt

How are you going? It's great to have a sense of humour.  I hope the AC is not being too harsh.  I am starting first dose today and about to sit with a very witty sarcastic girlfriend who I can also cry with.  A good mix.

All the best to you xxxx

Hi Katie

How are you going today? There are so many emotions aren't there.  I often feel like I'm abot to unravel, even when I hear my adult voice saying I'm ok while I organise and plan around the next big thing.  It's exhausing and extremely hard.  Each day is different and sometimes it feels like it all might fall to pieces and it might a little bit, but then it seems to continue on.  I find it helps to look at where I've come from and to just see to the next few days at a time - or ven one at a time/  And enjoy the small things when you can, I find there are days were everything feels like crap , then the next day I might be sick of everything being crap so I find or arrange some positives.  

Love melvery

Hi yes I can understand it's a big game changer I was diagnosed back in June mastectomy expander 4 lots of AC 12 of taxol then 3 months radio I like you feel isolated even though I have family and friends I'm now not working as I did have income protection but I miss normality. I'm due to have first fill expander tomorrow-what fun then 3rd AC Tuesday more fun it's good to share here, however I'm new to this and thus far nothing has posted - giggle like calling lifeline and they are busy! I do have a sense of humour so that helps me xx good luck with your results rest assured your not alone 

Hi there,

I am in the same situation, found out 4 weeks ago, surgery in 3 days, googling all night to find out how quick I can recover and pretend it never happened. Radiation at some point. Never get one clear answer on anything from anyone! It's driving me mad.

 I know I need to roll with it at the moment, but that's not me. 

Feel just the same, scared, emotional, terrified, confused, lonely, crazy.

Have kept it together til now, but starting to unravel.

I hope you are ok, stay strong.

We never really want to have to welcome another newbie , but I myself remember my first post late at night please I thought  waiting for someone to reply to me. It's so therapeutic to talk to people who've felt the same. Bc is doable this is my third year post diagnosis, I will never be the same but I love the new me, something happens an inner strength comes about . I wish you well adean. Xxx

Hi again melvery

Good to see you are taking small steps at a time. Unfortunately when i got the my journey kit i read way too much about what was to come and ended up in tears. 

Regarding wotk i returned part time  during chemo and sent my work colleagues an email about my diagnosis. I also mentioned i was happy to talk about stuff but wanted to focus on work while i was there and found the majority left me alone. I thought being upfront was best as i had no energy to try and hide things. My boss also made a point of telling my colleagues how important it was that they dont come to work sick so i wasnt put at risk of picking things up when my immunity was down.

Just remember you always have friends here who have been through what you are going through. Keep smiling??

Maryrose 

Thanks Rowdy, I can understand you getting your boss to tell the rest.  Telling ppl can be exhausting.  And the positive with them knowing I imagine is that they can understand and support you.  I feel like I'm behaving weirdly at times around ppl that don't know and that creates a distance or barrier for me with them.  All the best 

Melvery

Thanks Jan, It's hard once people know as they have the potential to disappoint with their responses or it can become the only way they relate to you.  All the best to you with your radiotherapy 

Melvery