I, we, feel so for you. It is almost three years since I was diagnosed triple negative and I still live in fear of it coming back. The treatment was so awful. Who would have thought chemo could be so horrible? I too just tried to hold it all in for the sake of the family and still don't think I have had a really good cry about it all. I'm still in shock! But there are many good things that have happened since. One of the best is that I have joined dragon's abreast and started dragon boating. So many wonderful women, and they have all been through the same experience. It's a support group where you don't have to talk about cancer! You will get through it. Just be really kind to yourself and try to put yourself first. All the best, Jo