I am two years out from my diagnosis on 3rd April . I had same treatment as you found it very hard but came out the other end ok. Readind your blog I am taken back to some of my own feelings but I did stay strong but then at the end of my treatment had a bit of meltdown. I sort help and support from a physiologist and a support group and this site has been so supportive. Found that having a good cry and asking for support helped me because it's hard and we need to reach out to others and I now hope I can help other women on this journey. We are not alone . Wishing you all the best. Deb