New Chapter

Yes I was really upset and angry for a long time :( I have cried a river, screamed into my pillow so many times I've lost count. I've tried really hard to let it go so it doesn't eat at me and make the next part of my life unlivable . I go down this Wed to have my mammogram, nervous is a understatement!!! I think it is like climbing a ladder for me to get the confidence back in my body. I look at my life..... Fit , no alcohol no drugs, smokes etc what in the hell did I do wrong, if anything. Maybe just rotten luck!!! I've started boxfit which has been wonderful :) I'm a very private person from a small town so people know I had cancer but that's about it. My closets friends and this site is the only place I truly express my feelings. So anyway we had to do a drill where we were doing jabs" hard" and I had a angry day and I was thumping them, lol. One of the girls said" I'd like to know what she is thinking when she is hitting the mits!! I had a little chuckle to myself ;)) anyway I just got visitors so I'll get back to you!! Yesbim on fb :)))))). Kell xxxxxxx