Nervous

I had my lumpectomy + sentinel node biopsy at the end of November. I think my emotions were very similar to yours. It just didn't feel like I was sick. The moment it all became a bit more real for me was when they had done the injection for the biopsy & I was having the scans. Lying there with this huge medical machine doing it's thing around me was a bit more confronting than I was expecting...

Also for me, I wasn't keen on the news getting out into our small town immediately. My son had an important audition to attend & I really wanted him to concentrate on that at the time....so again, I could deny it a bit longer! The word is certainly out now...being a local hairdresser, it didn't take long at all!...and it is helping me by talking about it & explaining to everyone what's going on, but yes, it does get overwhelming at times.

I am still waiting to start chemo next week and although it seems as though I've ALMOST forgotten I actually have breast cancer, & for now I can be in my little bubble of denial, I'm sure the anxiety will kick in again soon.

I hope all goes well for your surgery & continuing treatment.

Jo x