Needing positive stories

Dear Karen, thanks for the message. I'm back at work today and tomorrow so that next week with my last chemo dose I should have some sick leave left! I've negotiated with my dean to continue through the five weeks of daily radio in Feb/Mar to work but leave early - so I'll timetable all my teaching classes early in the day. Am still a little apprehensive but trying to be brave! I realised I've been a bit low re chances of recurrence, and this morning I read my horoscope and it made me realise I need to live more for the day (I know I know) - it said: "You are looking too far ahead and anticipating a problem that has not yet arisen - and which may not ever arise. All you need to do as you enter 2014 is stay steady, be kind and remain in the here and now" (Jonathan Cainer, the Advertiser). I still am not looking forward to next week's chemo and I've feel a bit like a walking skeleton of dead cells, but another analogy I have grasped that has helped came from a friend talking about regeneration - suddenly I thought, 'Yes! I am regenerating (like Doctor Who) - by the time my last dose is done ALL my cells will be new ones! I'll be a whole new me! Wow! How cool is that?! Anyway, these are the small things to sustain me. What about you?

Kate