My Treatment Plan Freak out

Hi Janina, I can't give you too much advice re chemo as I think the names of treatment have changed a bit. I was initially started on TAC in 2009 but had a bad reaction to the taxotare and so was switched to FEC. even though the FEC was not too bad nausea wise it did make me tired for a week or so after, i also struggled mentally whilst on it, especially the first week after. My anxiety soared (tend to be a bit anxious anyway). I had brilliant veins HOWEVER the chemo drugs absolutely trashed them, and four years later they are no better which has caused all sets of problems re future blood tests etc. When I had my recurrence in 2011 I was put back on TAC, which terrified me, however was given lots of antihistamines and was fine. As my veins were so trashed from the chemo two years prior had no option but to,get a port. It sat just under my collar bone. OMG why did I not get one previously. It was fantastic!!! No dramas with my veins, and even though a normal pathology nurse could not access it I could have blood tests taken from it at the oncology ward prior to chemo. It was just brilliant. I actually kept it for two years after my chemo finished as I knew I wanted a reconstruction and figured I could have it out during that op. That has actually just happened two weeks ago. A port sits under your skin, so it's not like you have a foreign body sticking out of you. It is just a bit of a bump under your skin. I just used to wear clothes that covered it if I could. The only thing I had to do for the two years before it was finally removed was pop in and have it flushed once every 6 weeks which took only a matter of minutes. I was lucky as my port was not painful at all. Radiation is a walk in the park after chemo I unfortunately can't comment on hormone treatment as I was triple negative. I know it is not without side effects, but a big plus is it helps prevent recurrence which is something we are all scared of ( especially me as did have one). I am so very sorry about your last piece of news. I can only imagine how devastating not being able to have kids is for you. I suppose you have asked plenty of questions about future fertility, IVF etc? On this note I can only send you a big hug. It is so much to take in. Hopefully there may be someone else on this site who may be able to answer some questions in this regard. Hugs Paula