Deanne is right Nicole.Try not to judge yourself against others.T here are so many factors to take into consideration; Type of BC,treatment,age,general health,and of course support.Just do what feels right for you Nicole,and if you feel as though You are not ready to go out and mix with others yet,then just use this network to 'chat' and stay connected.I was very emotional in the early stages,and I recall one day when I actually started crying on a packed bus in the middle of Sydney!! I have no idea why,as I felt perfectly fine when I got on the bus.!!!The physical and emotional aspects of BC,when combined,are very complex,and I don't think we will ever truly know why we have felt the way we have.Just know that there is an end to it!!!! In 5 days time,I will be 12 months past my last chemo day!! I feel absolutely great,but if you had told me I would feel like this,a year ago,I would have had my doubts!!!! Hang in there Nicole,and stay in touch.Cheers xoxRobyn